Okay i have been feeling really awkward n so not peaceful..that i need to get it all out.
Umm.. where to start from? :S
Okay, the thing is..I’m feeling.. umm.. miserable? I am getting this weird feeling that I’ll shatter,SOON. When and how, that i dont know.. 😦 But this time, it feels certain.
I’m just so..messed up.
My blogger friends and twitter buddies might think that I am the most farig bandi on the face of this planet. But,umm.. I have been reallu busy. =[ There are a few extra responsibilities from which I had tried to flee.Dont know why. But somehow i was lost in the middle of nowhere. I couldn’t put myself together and focus on the things which craved for my attention.
I have lost contact with a few friends. Close friends. I know I’m bad. N I know they wont trust me either when I’d say I’m rarely using my cell phone. =/ It used to b my addiction,but now it repels me like anything. That’s weird for a teen, but i guess, i am weird. My bechara cell rests in my bag for days until it’s battery dies. Just charged it after a day 😛 . Though it’s the only way I can patch up with my friends, I just dont get enough time to start a conversation via text messages..
uhhh, i’m not giving enough time to studies as well, I’m coming across a bunch of geeky ners everywhere.. =/ not that i aint a good student, but the nerdy atmosphere all aroun dis making the faith in myself shake to the extreme limits.. =\
Sorry,bloggy, I have to put you aside. 😦 Though its only you who now knows each n every misery of my life, but i need to stop getting attached to you. I love you for listening to the filmy n dramatic ups and downs of my daily diaries, and I also love you for letting me vent it all out, n then keeping it safe and hidden in your drafts..lol, but its time I better prioritise stuff. I’ve realised that I’ve been taking out time for you no matter what, n hence, ignoring.. no wait, rather forgetting, naaaahh.. umm.. just being away from other stuff..
I cant even express myself.
So, the thing is.. I need to contact a few friends after a LONG time! Those lovely fellows of mine always drop a hello n call at my place but me,the miss-i-am-so-busy-n-heartless ALWAYS hangs up within a few minutes, coz either i’m being called by api or dad, or my mischevious little nephew is causing destruction all over the house, or i have to go somewhere and the list goes on..
I really NEED to contact them! It’s been so long since we dint have a heart to heart conversation.. What do I do? Shall I just text them up? If yes, then what do I write ? And what if I fall asleep later on, it’ll anger them again.. =/
You so need to tell me what should be done,
I mean, there CAN be a balance between friends n family n academics, CANT IT? 😦
HELP ME OUT!
Oh,did you check it out, I so need to thank her (I still dun know her name, I’ll call her Uni then) for this lovely lovely poem! C it her way!
ps. Allah mian, Aj special blessings for my dad, Though I never say it to him directly that i love him, and there exists this HUGE gap between us two, but you know everything about our strange bond. Just bless him with a life that offers him no more sorrows, coz now he’s alone, n I, helpless. 😦 And plz help me be a good daughter. I’d be grateful.