14 July, 2007.
A day I wish would’ve never come in our lives.
14 July, 2010.
Maa’s 3rd death anniversary.
Time has passed really fast,
yet time has stood still.
Pain of your farewell is just so deep,
cant be cured by any pill.
I lost you & now you’re far away,
so far where I cant come.
You might be there in a state of peace,
but I,with grief, am numb.
You had such an early departure,
did i prove to be such a bad daughter?
Please come back, Maa, coz I promise,
to you, I’ll never bother.
I’ll not even bother api and dad,
I’ll have my meals on time.
But why did you just go away,
Can I know what was my crime?
If you think I’ve turned into a grown up,
then you’re certainly wrong.
Cant you see in my wet and teary eyes?
they’re waiting for you since so long!
If you look at me, you’ll soon find out
beneath my smile are hidden tears.
So you can spot how fate broke me,
by taking the ones I held dear.
What if our lads have forgotten us,
and what if nobody still cares?
I’ll stand on my own, will let life know,
that I’ll face it whatever it dares.
And though your death has shattered me,
and my soul has a wound unhealed,
but i am your blood, I’ll fight till the end,
and victory will be my yield!
So now, dont you think, that Im all alone
coz your prayers are still with me
and still you stay by my side,
brave and strong- I’ll be!
Your hopes for me, are now my aims,
and I promise I wont let you down.
and one fine day the world to you,
as ‘The Best Mother Ever’ will crown!
Oh my darling, I wiped a tear reading this. I am so sorry for your pain. I can only say that I know she’s looking down, so very proud…for you are an angel…the way you write from your heart. I send you much love and hugs. Always ~ Amanda x
*hugs back*
thanks so much Amanda.
Screw you shagufta, i hate you π¦
I’m hated by many. Guess I shall better be habitual of it now. π¦
I can understand ur feelings. Nobody in the world can replace her place in ur life. I m sure u will never let ur mom down and will fulfill all her dreams.
Take Care.
I hope the same.
Thanks Sandra.
The poem was both tragic and beautiful. I am so sorry for the loss, it is an open wound I am sure. I pray that time brings healing for you
thanks for the wish Lauren!
n hey, welcome to the blog (:
My cutie pie don be sad I m sure ur mom is proud for being mother of such a lovely person like u. U r a real sweet heart dear.
I hope she is.. I really wish that (:
This post of yours brought tears on my eyes. I can understand what u r going through.
Having someone who’d understand the phase you’re going through is always a relief.. I hope such a phase never comes on anyone..
I wish I could help u to overcome this crisis. But I know very well nobody can help u out for this. Still I would like to wipe ur tears and try to make u laugh as a friend at least can try a bit.
aww thanks Lisa, you guys make me forget the loneliness monster inside!
n i love you for that!
Don’t break ur heart my child. Im sure she didnt want to leave u guys so soon. It’s just that Allah Mian has things planned for us differently then as we ASSUME!.
But now HE is the One taking care of all the ups and downs in ur life, though HE has His soldier back in His paradise, but He Himself will fight all your battles. InshAllah π
*sigh*
you are right Sana..
i love the last part, writing it in my diary to have a constant reminder!
when ever i read ur this poem tears automatically tears come in my eyes
yar dun be sad if u will be sad ur mother didnot going to like this so plzzzzzzzzz
dun worry she is always with you and is always happy 4 u
im sure she is..
sorry for making you cry everytime, its just that.. emm.. i guess its a reminder to have a well spent time with your mom..
no sorry
n thnks u liked my mom
(:
Aunty surely is lovable! Every mom is!
so sweet of u
of you too my dear (:
bht hogae meri taraf busssssssssssss
lol,acha theek, bas:P khush?
ji khushhhhhhhhhhhhhh
dun be sad shaggy kid..ur mother is inshallah in much better place and seeing her lil kid too :)..juz pray for her. may her soul rest in peace.ameen..loved ur poem..nd inshallah u ll do what u wrote in last stanza…
Aameen at every phrase of your comment! (:
I hope i make her proud someday, do pray!
This heart-touching post of yours leaves me speechless, surely the ALLAH’s biggest blessings are not with you in physical form but I’m sure she stills living in your heart and will remain there to help you to come out of all obstacles & problems you may face in your life (May ALLAH forbid) …
May ALLAH Keeps Her Under HIS Blessings, Rise Her Among The Good-Ones on Judgment Day and Grant Her Place in Janat-ul-Firdous Accompanied By Family & Friends Along With HIS Prophet (SallALLAH-o-Alaih-e-WaSalam) β (Ameen-Sum-Ameen)
Aameen! (: Thanks Wasif for those precious prayers,i really really value them!
π¦ I feel it.
and i have no doubts on that.
Its so so warmly written by the most most most loving and effectionate daughter of this universe… I am sure if it would be possible to bring back someone from heaven, Allah would have departed your Maa first from the heaven for you…. π
I think i can feel the tears behind Laugh out loud Smile and tiny sparkles hidden in the shine of eyes of little doll….
Deee.. =)
your words always leave me with a smile and a lesson learnt..
GOSH HOW DO YOU DO THAT!!
cause some where somehow… I feel the same as you do and I was as same GIRL as you are…. My OLD version…. π
that means aagay jaa k i’ll be as wise as you?? π
Phir set hai! Im more than happy with my life! (:
Na na bacha…don’t be like I…I am too much weird… π
Be like yourself…you are sweet as you are…Always stay the same… π
but you know na Dee i am π
im sweet coz you think i am.. (:
there is no doubt in your sweatness my dear… π
why cant you see the bad in me?! π¦
Ohh.This poem revealed me that your mom is no more in this world.:( I understand what a great and irreplaceable loss it is. But I hope you’re a brave girl and you’ll go through it inshAllah.
May Allah bless her soul in the best of ranks.Ameen!
π¦
yes i am, its just at times when mt strength starts to shake.. anywho, thanks for the prayer, Amen to that!
n welcome to the blog Anum! (:
mera bacha aesa nhe hota she will get hurt by your such feelings
π¦ not in my control, Anum..
beautifully said!
thanks Ji! (:
This was truly moving … it made me cry. Be of peace…
DnD, thanks a ton (:
GOd shagufta that was really awesome and I am literally nearly crying π¦ deep thoughts i like no i love it !!!!!! my prayers for you
thanks a bunch phun (:
Always stay happy girl… And always keep on praying for your mum and her eternal peace..
Though she is not infront of u physically… but she can feel every emotion u go through…. if u stay happy she’ll b at peace and if u’ll b gloomy she wont b happy either… Just b the best daughter like u mentioned in ur poem and make ur mum proud as she is always up there to guide u π
Allah Ta’ala aapki ammi ko buland darjey aata karey…!!! Ameen…
*hugs*
at times you leave me speechless Sana..
(:
thanks..
*Hugs* back to you π
(:
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the deadline to vote for poets is Sunday…
one last chance,
you gain one vote for yourself when you vote 4 others,
simply reminder, ignore if you dislike it.
(:
I have submitted my nominations Ji!
Thanks a trillion for your untiring efforts!!
My eyes welled up while reading this. Beautifully written. Poignant and melancholy. Take care Shagufta. Be strong. May Allah and his blessings be with you.
thanks a bunch Ajay! (:
I really value this comment!
very sweet.. dear…
really.
thank you so much! (:
mothers are special people but i’m glad this poem ends on a hopeful note for the future…thank you for sharing these strong heartfelt emotions with me!
Hope is all im left with! To fulfil them is all I have to do.. (:
thank You for this comment!
I can’t imagine the pain you been through! I am sorry to hear that!
May Allah Bless you and your family ..
Aaameen (:
thanks for dropping by!
amazing, i feel this way a lot. loved reading this.
thanks much! =)
i do not know why to say as i have no words to write. this poetry has just made me cry and realized me that how important are the people around me that i call parents.
Im thankful enough to realize that the message was conveyed, hope it leaves a long lasting impact (:
That’s really sweet and touching.
Being a poet myself, I appreciate the flair in this poem, being very well rhymed and weighted.
I feel bad for you. All my condolences and solemn regrets for the greatest loss of your life, your irreplaceable mother.
Thank you so much (: Will check out your blog too to know more about you n your poetry (:
n hey,welcome to the blog!
love your work on this one
thanks a bunch! (:
I Truly respect your feelings. reading it reminds me of my own mother
fate and its decisions.. leaves us helpless.
Thanks for the visit (:
One of my twitter buddies referred this to me… and I am absolutely touched. Thanks for making a lot of us realize the importance of what we have been ignoring in the rat-race of this world.
Glad to know the message was conveyed!
n hey,thanks for the visit (:
Just be the brave and strong daughter like you mentioned in your poem and make your mum proud as she is always there to guide you….. May Allah Bless you and your family and may her soul rest in peace.*ameen*
This strength is what I have inherited.. Aameen! (:
Speechless. I wont use the words good, awesome, superb for this one. This post deserves a huge applause! Mothers are special. And writing this one, you just proved again that mothers ARE special!
(:
Thanks much!
It’s the kind of pieces that come directly from the heart, without any hindrance in between… Sweet to the extreme…
thanks a bunch Ali π
welcome here!
Such a Sweet post.. Just loved it,
This poem got tears in my eyes…
Love all your poems..
Take Care
Suraj
Speechless, heart touching. Tears falling down. But hey do remember your mother is in a better place now. Heaven is any day better than this cruel world. Have faith she is up there watching her daughter with shining eyes.