Does anyone has a clear account of his past? NO REGRETS , in short? I so not know what am i writing, why am i writing, and how will I be continuing. But I have a lot to vent out, and my dear bloggy, it’s coming all on you. You know i am a fool. I have always been one. But I don’t wish to be the same anymore. I may have been a meritorious student, teachers pet, little miss perfect, but who cares. I am not happy. 😦 You know the upcoming days are VERY important for me, the next week, and the next month, those few dates which none can ever erase from my life. I have to turn over a new leaf. I have to. Though you know i can’t no matter how hard i try, but , i have to. And i know i will. I can. I won’t let anyone tear me apart. This is my life, i am the one whose solely responsible for everything that happened 😦 If it’s my joy, i will celebrate it with those very special friends who are the reason behind my smile. If it’s my sorrow, i will be the one shedding tears over it. So you know, it’s not good presenting my life on a silver tray to someone else who doesn’t even know it’s value. I know i am so stupid to dig out the old stuff again and poison myself each second, but it’s okay. No wait, it’s not. I have so much to accomplish, I have to spread a smile on those numerous faces i see each day, I have to be the happy one, not the depressed lad. This is not what I will choose.
Ah, great. Now look at it.
My life is shorter even to sleep with a regretful conscience.
I can’t even pray to die during a not-so-peaceful sleep. What if i really do? uhh, can’t figure out anything.
Im angry,sad, depressed, frustrated, mad and don’t know what else. So for now on, i will just enlist the regrets i have. Hope it helps. 😦
I regret the times I’ve lied to myself just to make you happy.
I regret the times I’ve fallen prey to your luscious desires.
I regret the times I wasn’t able to spot the cunning mind behind your stunning face.
I regret the times I had to say stuff I never ever meant.
I regret the times I put on a fake smile for the ones who never deserved it.
I regret wasting the precious moments of my life indulged in your thoughts.
I regret the times I wasn’t able to put two and two together, when evrybody else did.
I regret having complete faith in you.
I regret not being wise enough to prioritize.
No i am not being a pessimist ( maybe i am ) but there’s one thing i know. Very well.
It’s right about time to pick up the eraser.
My past is full of regrets, i admit. Stupid silly weird and some funny regrets.